Monday, May 14, 2007
i have been wondering what is my main motive here in china, and why am i coming to china.
Am I here to earn money?
- salary of S$240, not even enough to survive in Singapore for a month...
Spending money?
- I am not loaded, why am I spending money here? some stuff is cheaper in singapore than china, just like Giodano, clothings, milo and other stuff...
Taking this trip as a tour?
- i haven't have got a chance to really walk around the country...
Attachment (SIP/MP):
- am i doing the course related work?
- no! i am not, user manual is not what i learn...
- course related stuff? jessie gave it to joshua to do le... barred me from doing....
Come just for the sake of coming:
-maybe ba...
For better future?
- people say those who go for overseas attachment will have a better future as compared to people having attachment in school...
- perhaps is because of this, i am here ba...
i am wondering this question for a few days... i realise that ever since i am here, i have became short tempered, easily angry, a bit weirdweird like that, sleeping later and later, and changing my life slowly, generate thinking at a slower speed.... i just feel that i have been wasting my time here, doing nothing.. of my grandmother did not pass on, mayb i will not come ba.. i will choose to be by her side, going to her when she calls me, loving her more, and i will not miss her bdae... her birthday, all my uncles, aunties, cousins, our entire big clan will celebrate it for her... no one will miss that.. if she was still around, i will not come.. if i come, i wil miss her birthday...
about 2 to 3 weeks ago, long zhou ask me to think, have you learnt anything from this trip? what have you learnt? i thought, and replied him, i din learnt anything, in fact he is the one learning more.. everyday he has something about work to say, but me, i din have anything to say...
i just felt that i am lost.. i don't know what is the answer for the above questions...
Just The Girl @
11:37 AM
